Dear Diary..

Today is Christmas and i have lost 3 of the most important people in my life. It sucks but i know we cannot turn back time. Have to look forward. Looking back at our past Christmas celebration there's always 16 of us. But now we have with 13 people. Still feeling heart broken for losing shermaine. Really sad. We've been thru thick and thin together but still god decided to break us up. Look at the family pic. Its not even full. Still short of papa, ah gong, my beloved Shermaine. I'm not even happy at all when i was there. I think about the past where there's 16 people. Its was more fun then. But now i will never find this kind of fun anymore. Hais. Always thinking of Shermaine. 失去了才懂得珍惜. Really regret letting her go. I should have hold her back. Now then start to treasure her. Its kinda sad knowing that she have deleted me completely from her life. I will never know how is she doing again. There's something missing in my heart. I wonder isit you. Loving you was always my priority. But treasuring you was not there. I use to treat you like shit but now after you gone then i know actually you are the one and only for me. But i will never find back this feelings. I have no idea how and why i'm feeling like that. Maybe i have already treat you as my wife thats why i'm feeling this way. I really hope you will find a better guy then me. Who will treat you 100times better then i do. Having a relationship with you was never wrong. If you ever come and find me late at night. I promise you i will always open the door for you. Comfort you when you need. 

baby dont let go
;8:34 PM

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